2019 Update

I’ve been absent for a while. Honestly, this is the first time I’ve even been able to go near my keyboard and to attempt to write.

It hurts, but in a good way.

It aches the way that muscles do after physical therapy. There’s that sharp pang followed by a sigh of relief after relocating a joint. 

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Progress

This morning, I woke up at 5am. Normally, like any young adult, my reaction would be to groan at waking up at such an ungodly hour, but today I was ecstatic, I slept for five consecutive hours last night! After the week I’ve had, where I’ve been lucky to get an hour total, it felt absolutely amazing to get some proper sleep.

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Wake-up call

My pain reached the point where I was actually in tears, struggling in vain to convince myself that I was fine, hoping that if I just told myself to be strong it would go away on its own. Luckily, I have some amazing people in my life who know the difference between when I’m being brave, and when I’m just putting on a brave face.

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Harsh reality

I was really hoping that I could start out this blog all positive, but I guess that’s something that I’ll have to accept, sometimes illness has other plans. I just have to do my best to work with what I’ve got, if I have less spoons today than normal, that’s ok. Hopefully there’ll be a day when I don’t have to count my spoons quite as obsessively, but until then, I just need to come to terms with the fact that my daily supply of spoons is finite, but it doesn’t mean that my daily amount of happiness is, just, for now, I have to find it in different places.

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The Journey Begins

If my journey was a book, I guess I’d call this blog Chapter One after a long, convoluted, and confusing Introduction.

Yes, I do realise that sounds trite as anything, but my health journey has been confusing and all over the place, and I’m still trying to make sense of it myself.

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